35: Of being strong

Hari ini 30 Oktober 2007 dan ini adalah entri saya yang pertama untuk bulan ini. That's sufficient to show how busy I am this month. With Hari Raya, assignments,projects,tests,quizzes,reports etc. So many things had happened and surely, I wont share all of them here. Haha. Only tonight I got 'mood' to type something. Just to make myself feel better. I know this pain wont heal. And it doesn't worth it at all for me to weep on it. Stupid I am. I know it from the beginning but nothing can stop me from thinking about it for almost evry breath I take. Kan bagus kalau aku mengingati Allah sebanyak itu. T_T


Nadiah, you must do your best for your final exam !!! Now just focus on that.

34: Masa yang berlalu

Pejam celik pejam celik, dah nak masuk Syawal dah. Dah nak masuk bulan Oktober. Masa terlalu pantas berlari. Tahun depan aku akan jadi 3rd year student then do my internship then become a final year student! Dah terasa sangat tua already.

- Apa yang aku dapat dan belajar selama hampir 3 tahun kat UTP ni?
- Adakah aku puas hati dengan apa yang aku capai hari ini?
- Is this what I wish to be?

There're a lot questions to answer. And I am so afraid to answer them coz I cant bear to see the results. Nad,nad,nad,nad. Allah masih memberi masa lagi untuk kamu berusaha mencari jawapan yang terbaik untuk setiap soalan di atas. Everything's in your hand!


P/s - Semoga keberkatan Ramadhan al-Mubarak ini memberikan sedikit tempias untuk hati yang kering kontang ini.

33: Cinta Hakiki

Amiiiin ya Rabbal 'alamiiiiin....

32: No Title

I really hate it to say this.

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Argh, nobody's reading this blog anyway.

Errm..

Erm..

Nampaknya..........

aku dah jatuh hati.

Macam mana jatuh hati tu?

Erk. Susahnya nak terangkan.

Macam ni la.

You'll feel like your heart and mind are not with you anymore.

And I HATE it.

sigh

31 : Jauh.

Semakin dalam, semakin jauh pula.
Kadang-kadang.
Aku terlalu yakin.
Kadang-kadang.
Aku goyah.

Mungkin ini bukan kehendak-Nya.

Semakin dekat, semakin hatiku sakit.
Kadang-kala.
Terlalu kuat naluri itu.
Kadang-kala.
Terlalu pedih hakikat itu.

Mungkin aku bukan untuknya.

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Gambar di sebelah terlalu ceria untuk sajak ini.kalau

boleh digelar sajak la. Tapi tak pe,sejuk mata tengok

adik yang comel ni. Terubat hati :)

30 : Wau Cantek

Sekitar pertandingan

Wau Cantik sempena Independence Week'07

30 August 2007

Atas Kafe Lembaran V2,UTP

Group kitorg, kumpulan "Next year gi intern" dpt 4th place out of 8. Not bad,kan? hehe.

Credit to Shima selaku event manager yg bjaya. Congratz2 :)

29 : Something to ponder

"Sometimes people just dont understand. But sometimes too, understanding them is just enough."


-- Farah xcaye aku yang reka sendirik ayat neh. ahaha. aku kan jiwang~ --

29 : Antara Dua Cinta

Apa yang ada jarang disyukuri

Apa yang tiada sering dirisaukan

Nikmat yang dikecap baru kan terasa bila hilang

Apa yang diburu timbul rasa jemu

Bila sudah di dalam genggaman

Dunia ibarat air laut

Diminum hanya menambah haus

Nafsu bagaikan fatamorganadi padang pasir

Panas yang membahang disangka air

Dunia dan nafsu bagai bayang-bayang

Dilihat ada ditangkap hilang

Tuhan.. leraikanlah duniaYang mendiam di dalam hatiku

Kerana di situ tidak ku mampu

Mengumpul dua cinta

Hanya cintaMu ku harap tumbuh

Dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh

P/s- Lagu daripada Raihan.Lirik yang begitu indah.

28 : We ROQ~!

Rememberance Of al-Quds

21 August 2007

Kami bepakaian serba hitam besempena tarikh di atas. Teringat kata-kata Mr Grant Ellis, our EMT's lecturer sebaik saja kami masuk kelas," Why are you wearing all black?Are you going to kill me?". And he's joking. He's always like that. By the way, ROQ was not just about wearing black, at least I should be thinking of the suffering of Umat Islam in Palestin. Moga Allah mebuka jalan untuk aku menyumbang buat mereka dan Islam.

27 : Sedih tapi berdayakah aku?

26 : Hanya kasih-Mu yang kudamba.

Semakin jauh ku dari-Mu
Semakin dekat pula Kau menghampiri daku
Oh, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih
Siapalah diriku di pandangan-Mu

Semakin cuba ku dekati
Semakin kuat pula Kau mendugai aku
Oh, Tuhan Yang Maha Sempurna
Kerdilnya diriku di hadapan-Mu

C/O
Bagaimanakah nantinya tika berhadapan dengan-Mu
Sudikah Kau menerima hamba-Mu yang hina ini
Ya Allah Kau Maha Pengampun

Di bayangan mentari aku kealpaan
Dusta dunia penuh kepura-puraan
Di kala dini hari aku kepasrahan
Mendamba jernih embun kasih sayang-Mu Oh Tuhan

Andainya dihitung amalanku
Belum pasti dapat ku hampiri gerbang syurga-Mu
Oh Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah
Hindari diriku dari siksa-Mu? Oh Tuhan

Kasih sayang-Mu Tuhan
Itu yang ku dambakan
Dengan rahmat-Mu ampunilah diriku..

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Ya Allah..

Maka benarlah

Bahawa hanya cinta-Mu yang hakiki

Bahawa selama ini aku alpa

Astaghfirullah

Astaghfirullah

Astaghfirullah

25 : This kinda feeling..

Who loves you?

No one.

I guess I should learn how to love myself first.

24: The Best KL's Moment Ever

Last Friday and Saturday, I'd had the best time ever in KL. I've been hanging out around KL since I'm 17 and sometimes I felt myself as part of it. Even I never spent so much time at my hometown,Muar as I did to KL.(yela,apa yang ada kat Muar kan..pekan kecil yang aman damai,indah dan permai). Yet, Muar is still the best place to settle down a family and live happily ever after~ (and Terengganu too~!) Ok2, forget about Muar and Terengganu. Let's focus on KL the best place for shopping spree.Hehe.

So on that Friday, 27.07.2007 (a beautiful date,kan?) off we went to KL with Filzah as the driver's of her Najah (blue satria) and me as co-pilot and Syaza,Tim and Shima as the 'penceria keadaan'.Hehe.The main purpose of me coming to KL all the way from Tronoh is to watch my abah's convocation day, must be the most precious day of his life. And for me myself, it was so great a day and it was damn much more than just watching my dad on stage receiving his holy certificate. There was a feeling that's hard to explain, a feel of proud and joy mixed with kinda feeling that made me wanna cry. It's just his great attitude and hard work through his study years touched my heart. Abah couldn't afford to study in university when he was young because of money matters.Now, in his late forties he finally received Bachelor of Education (Mathematics), his dream of 20 years back then. I'm really proud of you,abah!

Actually the best part is about me riding Putra and Star with my parents and Imi for the first time. And it was the first time experience for my parents. Like what my mum jokingly said to my friends, "Tak kesahla pegi mana2 pun,asalkan dapat naik LRT". Haha. Then, kami jalan2 ke Sogo, Jalan Masjid India and KL Sentral. I realized that my mum loved so much being in Masjid India, the colourful kain baju kurung and tudung impressed her and I remember her saying " Lawanya baju2 kat sini,lain dengan kat Tangkak. Sayangnya,baju raya semua mak dh beli,siap dah tempah."

Seronoknyer...alhamdulillah (^_^)~

23 : Mesej Yang Tidak Diduga

Sebentar tadi,sedang aku tengah duk bukak page kt friendster,saje tengok2 page member2..tiba2 henset aku berbunyik..Then,aku pn bace r,sapela bagi mesej mlm2 ni

"Nad.Teko (bukan nama sebenar) amek arab.dia ada kat
sni.haha.ensem!
-Shima-

Cis~~ tibe2 aku rase nak cekik2 je muka dia. Mesti derang tengah gelak2 dgn harapan aku akan jeles sbb aku asyik gelakkan derang je kene gi kls arab malam2. Lepas ni mesti derang lg semangat gi kelas tu. Huwaaaaaa saket ati..~~!!


tolong eh.mmg aku marah tp aku memang x jeles~~!!!! (berdebar nak tunggu derang balik dari kelas,mesti derang akn citer mcm2 nk wat aku jeles! Xpe,yang penting,aku nk cooolll je~~~) haha.adeyh..bilela nk jdk matured?

22 : Why love?

Love

You gave me thousands hope
When everything seems to fall apart

You brought to me happiness
But only a glimpse of it

You told me not to cry
When he walks away

You made me so nervous
Whenever he's around

You made others laughed at me
Hilariously

You made others mad at me
Seriously

You told me he's everything
When actually he's nothing

You scolded me when I feel like giving up
To love him

The worst is,
You made me thinking of nothing but HIM.

I Hate You So Much
.

love....that's why i hate you so much!

21: New

It's a brand new sem again. It's always good to be in the situation where the semester is about to begin because people used to think that we can start all over again at this time.It's like starting from zero. But just to feel good isn't enough. I have to work really hard so that the 'feel-good' will survive till the end of the semester which I never succeed before.

- positive thinking

- brave

- hardworking

- never care what people say as long as you are right

- matured ---> this is the hardest part (^_^")

This semester the world will see the brand new of me dignified with those mentioned above. Ahaha.. ops,I'm supposed to be serious..

Moga Allah permudahkan.

20: sedih

sedih aku...sedih..sedih sangat...tak tau nak luah kat sape..sedih sangattttt

19 : X yah baca! merapu je ni

Alhamdulillah.. dah selesai final exam. Kesimpulannya aku dah berjaya menghabiskan satu lagi semester kat UTP ni. Ada lagi 5 sem je lepastu dah grad..then keje..then kawin (kalau ade org nak la). Cepat betul masa berlalu...serius sangat2 cepat. Bila dah kat U ni, teringat zaman sekolah dulu..kalau boleh memang nak pegi balik zaman sekolah tu, nak rase balik kenangan duduk kat asrama dengan kawan2 dan nak ubah apa2 yang patut atau nak buat balik apa2 yang kita x sempat buat dulu. Tapi, peluang hanya sekali.

Apala aku merepek ni. Esok nak pegi Langkawi. Cuti2 Malaysia la konon2nya. Tapi aku xde perasaan langsung. Huhu. Camnela nak datangkan balik mood ni. Mood~~~ mood~~~ datanglaa...boleh ke panggil camni? Rasa tak sedap hati pun ada. Semoga kami selamat pergi dan pulang. Cuti kali ni, aku akan bercuti segala2 nya. Dengan tiada henset dan nombor sape2..maybe aku takkan contact ngan sape2 buat sementara waktu. Contact dengan nombor henset yg aku hafal jela nampaknya. Itupun kalau aku beli henset baru..Kalau boleh, tak nak beli henset..huhu. Tapi kene beli gak.....huwaaaaaa takkan asyik pakai kredit orang je.

Gile merapu aku harini. Aku nak tulis pasal benda lain sebenarnye. Tapi dia xnak keluar2 gak. Cerita lain pulak yang keluar. Arrr, xpela biarlah rahsia. Tak sabar nak jumpa mak,abah,abang,eman,adin,imi,atuk,tok wan, mak lang, pak lang, hakim,mie ngan aliff. Sangat2 rindu.... susah aku nak rindu orang ni tapi sekarang aku memang sangat rinduuuu. Ketidakstabilan emosi semaki berleluasa. Baik aku berhenti sekarang. baik aku gi packing beg. Huhu. Langkawi...here i come~~~~ (cuba untuk excited)

18 : Impian

Impian aku ialah pergi ke tempat2 seperti dalam gambar di atas. Kalau dapat, teringin sangat nak menjelajah seluruh Eropah dan negara-negara Timur Tengah seperti Mesir dan Jordan. Bukan sekadar melancong, tapi belajar sesuatu dari sana. Dan lagi seronok kalau dapat pergi dengan yang tersayang (^_^) . Haha. Jauh perjalanan luas pemandangan.

• P/s - Next week is going to be the final exam. Yet I still have time writing this. He he. All the best to my frens ~ Semoga kejayaan milik kita dan moga kejayaan itu yang terbaik untuk kita dunia dan akhirat. Amiin..

17 : The colour of brain,huh?

Your Brain is Orange

Of all the brain types, yours is the quickest. You are usually thinking a mile a minute, and you could be thinking about anything at all. Your thoughts are often scattered and random - but they're also a lot of fun! You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about esoteric subjects, the meaning of life, and pop culture.

What Color Is Your Brain?

P/s - Quick? Someyimes maybe..but it's so true that I could be thinking about almost anything. Haha. Filz, do this :)