93: Kosong

Saat-saat begini, aku begitu merindui kawan-kawan, suara gelak tawa diorang yang tak jemu2 mengenakan antara satu sama lain. Hehe. Dan aku rindu sangat2 famili yang dah lama sangat tak jumpa. Memang, ada dia yang meneman, terima kasih :). Tapi aku sedar, hidup ini takkan lengkap tanpa mereka semua.

2 hari lagi dan aku perlu TABAH.
Ya Tuhan, permudahkanlah urusanku.Amiin.

92: Women

They're complicated. Believe me or not. Sometimes, I dont even understand myself. Why I did this, why I did that, why I felt this way and why I felt that way. Sometimes, thing as small as an ant can be as big as an elephant, at a specific moment and situation. Sometimes I can be mad at almost anything. Sometimes I can feel sad because of a really stupid thing. And sometimes, I can feel nothing at all.

Is that sounds complicated enough?Hehe.

P/S: Just my opinion. Not all women are like that.Hehe.

91:No more presentation

Just finished my Final Year Project's oral presentation. Alhamdulillah. Yeayy,sudah boleh study dgn tenang :)

90: Datagram

"What I see in you Nadiah it that you are such a lifeless person", said Dr Sumathi. "Dont you think so?" Now she asked my friends and they just laughed their heads out. Grrr,siapla korang!

" You are such a person who will stay calm and cool, let say there is a bomb exploded next to you... Your presentation's content was good but all that you need is to be more passionate and enthusiastic. Your presentation was persuasive enough but you yourself is not persuasive " Yeah, I've heard this before. Heartless, senseless, now lifeless. Hehe. I just smile to her, that's me Dr. Maybe I can change but I need time. Hehe.

"However, you did improve a lot since your first presentation."

Thank you Dr Sumathi, my Professional Communication Skill's lecturer. You're such a wonderful lecturer. Eventhough PCS seemed to be the most stressful class at first with 4 presentations, at last it emerged to be my best class in this semester or perhaps during my study in UTP. I learned to build up my confidence and communication skill and I managed to overcome my fear and nervousness! Thanks to such a wonderful lecturer and classmates :)

Fear of PCS class? Make it enjoyable, participate in every activity and think that everyone is learning, so there's no harm of making mistake,right? Forget about afraid of not getting good grades, just do the best to improve ourselves. Hehe. All da best sapa2 yang bakal amik PCS :)

89: Bengang betol la ngn ACS nih!!!!!! Dah 2minggu aku apply surat acknowledgement tu,asyik tak siap je,aritu dah siap,tapi dia salah buat plak..!!eee

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88: 3 Tahun

ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
kuyakin ada cinta ketulusan hati

yang mengalir lembut
penguasa alam
tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh

pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk
dan menyesatkan cintaku
andaikan ku bisa
lebih adil pada cinta kau dan Dia

aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa
biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini

oh tuhan suburlah hatiku

Takdir Cinta

by Rossa

(lyric modified by author)

87: Sampai Syurga

"Kenapa asyik sedih-sedih je kat blog tu?"

"Takpela, dah memang asyik sedih je selalu.."

"Tulisla yang happening2 sket"

"Ala, blog tempat tulis yang sedih2 la, kalau yang happy2 buat pe nak tulis, baik terus cerita kat orang lain..kan2"

"......"

"Hehe.."

86: Butterscotch

Saya cuba kawal tapi akhirnya kalah jugak. Perit bila terpaksa berpura-pura demi nak menjaga hati orang lain. Pura-pura gembira, pura-pura bahagia, pura-pura tak kisah dan pura-pura tak cemburu.

Saya boleh buat semua tu,tapi sampai bila?

85: Angkut-angkut

It has been a while. Akhirnya,dapat jugak sign in ke blogger ni after a 'while' di block oleh encik UTP yang bijak pandai. Rasional betol tindakan mem'block' Google dan website-website yg related to Google. Tak paham sungguh..

Macam-macam aktiviti sem ni, rupanya dah nak final dah.. Cepat nya masa berlalu..

Volleyball, netball, futsal, sukaneka dan next event.. Dinner Batch. Aktif sungguh my batch. Ehe.

Hope that this sem will end with a happy ending. For all. Insya Allah.

I dont care anymore
I even care 100 times more..

It's up to you to do whatever you wish
Please, what you're doing is hurting me..

I dont need you
But I miss you.. and us

I have others who really care
I still hope you'll still do care..

I had given up on you the day you really test my limit
The more I hate you, the more I realize how important you to me

I dont have any regret
I felt like losing one piece of my life

You wont affect my life at all, sorry..coz I'm strong!
My life wont be the same..


Ego..does it worth?

84:Rindu

Your Mother
by Yusuf Islam

Who should i give my love?
My respect and my honour to?
Who should i pay good mind to after Allah(sw) and Rasul-Allah?
Comes your mother,
Who next? Your mother,
Who next? Your mother,
And then your father

Cause who used to hold you
And clean you and clothe you?
Who used to feed you
And always be with you?
When you were sick, stay up all night
Holding you tight?
That`s right no other, my mother

Who should i take good care of,
Giving all my love?
Who should i think the most of after Allah(sw) and Rasul-Allah?
Comes your mother,
Who next? Your mother,
Who next? Your mother,
And then your father

Cause who used to hear you
Before you could talk?
Who used to hold you,
Before you could walk?
And when you fell, who`d pick you up?
Clean you cut?
No one but, your mother

Who should i stay right close to?
Listen most to?
Never say no to after Allah(sw) and Rasul-Allah?
Comes your mother,
Who next? Your mother,
Who next? Your mother,
And then your father

Cause who used to hug you
And buy you new clothes?
Comb your hair and blow your nose?
And when you cried who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears? Who really cares?
My mother

Say alhamdulilllah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah for my mother

83: Ikhwan

Aku jatuh chenta dengan ini budak~ Ikhwan, anak Kak Hawa, our beloved lab technician a.ka. 'supervisors' utk sume budak2 EE final year.

Asyik teringat dia je sejak jumpa dia kat rumah Kak Hawa petang tadi. Sangat hyperactive,ceria,riang-ria dan sangat2 menghiburkan mata yang memandang. Oh Ikhwan, tahu tak anda sangat comel?Geramnya T_T

Bayangkan, dia belum boleh bercakap, cuma leh keluarkan bunyi2 yang pelik sebab dia sangat suka utk bercakap dan menyanyi~ tapi berat dia dah 17kg. Sangat mantap dan sihat~geram lagi T_T

Lagi satu, dia ni minat sangat ngan AF, kalau mak dia nyanyi lagu AF, dia akan menari yang sangat excited sampai terpusing2, last2 dia yang pening..memang sangat hyperactive ini budak! Wuu bila lagi kita akan bertemu..T_T

82: Rapuh

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidupku

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dada kuharap hanya
diriMu yang bertakhta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu

Rapuh,
by Opick

Lagu ni sangat best~ sila cuba dengar dan hayati..
Sedih.

81:Luar biasa

Rumetku memang kejam.

Dah hobi aku nyanyi dalam bilik sambil pasang headphone kuat-kuat, dia tak boleh terima plak.

Since she knew that I wont listen to her talking all the bad things IN FRONT of me while I was singing , then she wrote that note and flashed it in front of me while I was busy 'recording' my album.

Kureng nye rumet~

Dan lepas tu, kami seperti biasa, bertumbuk-tumbuk sikit, aku tolak dia dan dia tolak balik, aku pulas tangan dia dan dia pulas tangan aku balik, aku sekeh kepala dia dan dia tak dapat sekeh balik sebab kurang ketinggian! Haha..rumet2

80: Am losing faith in you..

That's it.

79: Hope she's fine

Pagi tadi, jumpa Ms Sumathi Reganathan, lecturer subjek Professional Communication Skill untuk dengar feedback dia tentang presentation kitorang semalam. 5 orang dalam 1 group dan aku sorang je perempuan. Mula2 ingatkan mesti bosan sebab aku sorang je girl tapi it turns out that the team was not bad! Semua orang ok la, boleh masuk la. Hehe. 3 orang dari mereka adalah junior so lagi senang nak deal.

Dan apakah komen lecturerku? She said I was:

• a bit nervous
• lack of confidence
• expressionless

Nervous itu memang sifat semulajadi aku bila cakap kat depan. Usually, I would build up confidence sikit2 through out the presentation. But yesterday,it didn't happen. Kalut je sampai abes present. Maybe sebab the topic is not my expertise. So banyak kali cam lost~hehe. But it's ok, because this is a group presentation. Overall, we're not that bad walaupun Ms Sumathi sangat8x la strict~

Individual presentation --> in 2 weeks time! Hope that I can overcome my nervousness like what I did during my ETP presentation. That's my best record ever! Hehe. Insya Allah.

P/s - Me expressionless? Huhu, camne nak ubah muka android ni..

78: Al - Fatihah

Dengan tiada terduga
Dunia ini kan binasa
Kita kembali ke asalnya
Menghadap Tuhan Yang Esa

"Keagungan Tuhan" by Sulis

_____________________________________________

Al-Fatihah buat arwah Shida Adnan, pelajar UTP yang pergi menghadap Illahi pada 9 Februari yang lepas dan juga buat dua orang penyelamat yang cuba menyelamatkan beliau. Ajal maut di tangan Allah, bila-bila masa saja ia akan datang. Pemergian yang tak diduga langsung. Moga menjadi iktibar.Dan Air Terjun Batu Berangkai tu, aku dan kawan2 pernah bersuka-ria di situ, dan aku juga pernah hampir hanyut dibawa arus. Teringat saat-saat mencemaskan tu, mujur Tuhan masih memberi peluang untuk bernafas di bumi milik-Nya ini.

77: Once upon a time I had a bestfriend

In the dream last night,
I was standing at the end of this narrow tunnel
I could see a light at the other end
And I saw her
With her usual expression
Sad, gloomy and one kind of expression which I never can understand
But I was hopeless
Couldn't move even a finger


I yelled her name
Asking her to forgive me
And to tell me if I had done anything wrong
And to explain why she treats me this way
And to tell her how much I regret this
But I was hopeless
Couldn't utter even a word


In that dream last night,
I ended up crying my eyes out
It just so weird
That all I can do was crying
It just so painful
That all I can do was nothing


I tried to fix this
I tried to do whatever that could help
Healing the pain
I tried to act as if nothing happens
I tried to put aside all the heart-broken feelings
I tried be as natural as I can
I tried to remind myself that this is not about myself
Just to see her smile


In that dream last night,
I could see her eyes
Red and penetrating
And I knew
That she could never forgive me
But I still hope
That I was wrong


There I was
Standing hopelessly
All I can do was praying to God
To grant her wish
To grant her wish
To grant her wish
If that is the best for her


Once upon a time I had a bestfriend
And she is still the one

76: One Piece

Aku dah buat balik dah perangai lama. Tidur pukul 9 lebih lepas tu bangun pukul 2 pagi konon-konon nak study. Selalunya end up tak study2 sampai pagi but kadang2 aku study la jugak tapi after 1-2 hours of 'lagha'ing. Hehe.

Tiba2 teringat azam aku untuk sem baru ni (already 2 weeks). Dah nak dekat bulan 2 tapi who cares kan, suka hati la nak buat azam baru bila pun. Takkan masa new year je kan. Hehe. Antara azam-azam yang sekarang dah jadi kenyataan cuma tak tau akan istiqamah ke tak :

1. Nak handwash baju2ku. Mesin basuh baju automatik tu dah naik harga jadi 2.50.Boikot2! Setakat sem ni belum pernah lagi sentuh mesin tu, aku akan berusaha kekalkan rekod! Hehe.
2. Tak nak serabut. My first week was sangat2 teratur dari segi almost everything. But this 2nd week, things kinda start to fall apart. Haha. I'm starting to mess around. Buktinya, meja study pun dah mula serabut. C'mon nad,ingat azam baru!
3. Nak enjoy my last year in UTP or in another words, my last chance to be a 'formal' student if tak jadik sambung belajar nanti. Enjoy maknanya to appreciate, hayati, nikmati and cherish every moment and chance given. Sedih la pulak I'm approaching the end of my "university age".
4. Nak jadik matured. Which sometimes I feel I have achieved this but then, sometimes I feel like I am no different from budak2 tadika.
5. Nak kumpul duit. Internship buat aku dapat kumpul duit sikit, even tak banyak tapi ada la duit simpanan sikit untuk masa depan. Hehe. So tak nak la duit tu dihabiskan masa final year ni plak. Kena menabung lagi, ikut cakap mak.
6. Nak jadi lebih rapat dengan kawan2. Mana2 yang dah memang rapat tu, rapat2 kan lagi. Dan yang tak rapat tu, makin rapatkan. Sekarang ni la peluang nak extend my networking, dah keluar U nanti tak jumpa dah mereka2 ni. At least, kalau dah baik, senang nak contact via friendster ke facebook ke. Berkawan biar berjuta kan?Hehe.
7. Nak jadik mummy. Haha. Just kidding. Actually, azamku yang ke-7 ialah nak keenam-enam azam di atas tercapai dengan jayanya dan bukan hangat-hangat tahi ayam saja. Insya Allah.

Tahun ni umur dah 22. Nak tak nak kena percaya jugak saya sudah tua walaupun muka still macam 18 years old. Hehe.Okla tak tau nak tulis apa lagi. Dah lama tak buat this kind of dear- diary-today-i-meet-my-crush nye entri. Hehe.

75: Siput babi

Kepada,

Encik/Puan/Cik Siput Babi yang aku terpijak sampai bunyi 'krak!' tadi hinggakan aku berasa sesuatu yang crunchy di bawah selipar aku ni...please please please forgive me!

This is actually not my first time yet I dont know how not to step on them. Maybe I should better watch on my steps more. If not, more lives will be put in danger.

Monster sungguh aku ni.. No,no, not a killer k!